Who needs Toes?

I ask because I want to cut mine off! Four major ingrown toe nails in 6 months! My toes hurts so much right now...*growls* It's so frustrating. I had to leave after Physics becasue it was killing me and when I got home I realized my group was rendering in Comp Graphics and all my scenes are on a disk, in my backpack! And too top everything off, If I get another one, I have to get my entire nail removed. That's going to be fun (you sense the sarcaism?)

Forensics tomorrow. That will be fun and hopefully something to get my mind off my foot. Storytelling, easy as pie...I hope anyway.

AT least I have some great things to look forward too. In two weesk I'll be in London (god I love London, great city) and then in Feb, NYC and Chicago (as in the musical) with Kevin! yey! I still can't believe he's on Broadway, it's going to be great!

Better go practice for Forensics now *as she finds another fanfic or something to read online*

I feel like shit...

I'm so depressed right now. I feel like everything I love I can't do.

I put off riding so I can go to the Forensics competition and now I find out, Ms Dolye didn't enter me, after I came and told her to please enter me in Storytelling because I couldn't come to the meeting. I think I should just quit altogether. Either I can't go or when I can, they forget to enter me. And when I do go, I suck! They need a better VP, because I suck...

And because of my foot, I can't ride for a good two weeks (there goes the Dressage program I so carefully worked out for the song and Knight and...fuck!)and if they end up taking my nail, it might be a month before I ride again. Great, I'm under so much stress and the only thing I do that relieves it, I can't do.

And ya know, I was talking to Joey over IM the otehr day, about him and his girlfriend and I started to really miss Erik. I haven't seen him in ages and the last time I did, well, let's just say it didn't go well. I didn't realize he had been looking for me and I kind of blew him off. I feel really bad now but because I was sick, i didn't see him on Sunday (turns out he was sick too) I want to see him so badly, I wish we went to the same schools sometimes. Yet something else that seems to be to good for me...I really feel like I don't deserve him sometimes. Even his friendship...God, i want to see him so bad.

And tomorrow, no one will notice anything because I will be my ever happy self until I come home and cry and be depressed. As always. Wonderful...God, I want to go away...