littlesilvered

"How do you tell someone that has never been to Blacksburg that a Hokie is not a turkey, that it’s not really even a bird. A Hokie is a state of mind. It’s a sense of community. It’s a feeling of pride."

[From here]

We remember what happened 4 years ago when we lost 32 of our own. And we will never forget them. We are Virginia Tech. We are Hokies. And never have I been prouder to be one.

My mom said something to me while I was watching a movie with Dad over Christmas. She said "Remember, moms make Christmas." I asked her where this came from, and she said that she was really missing her mom this Christmas.

( For some reason, this has stuck with me. )

I wish I could say writing this out has helped, but it hasn't. I just want the thoughts to stop, to be blissfully ignorant and careless about the subject again.

Really, as much as it feels like home, I wish I hadn't come back to Florida. I want to be home with my parents right now.

Yeah. I go for months without updating LJ and you all get this. Sorry.

So, I'm sitting at the airport with over an hour to my flight because my parents were freaking out about parking and TSA and all that. I wasn't worried because if any airport is good at dealing with crowds, it's Orlando but I humored them.

Parking was fine, parked in the same lot I always do. Got to the airport and the line for TSA wasn't long at all. Checked in with my boarding pass on my phone, which was kinda cool.

TSA really wasn't bad. They weren't doing the full body scan/pat down for everyone. Though, I can't say much for the pulling process. While I was in line, they pulled me and the two white middle age men behind me to go to the fast lane. The black girl in front of us? Got pulled for the scan. She opted for a pat down but I didn't see how it went as the female TSA person hadn't gotten there yet. So I have nothing to report there.

And that's it. I have Wendy's and I'm trying to get Netflix or Hulu to load so I can watch something while I eat. In 4 hours, I should be home in VA for the first time in a year. Wow.

Also, anybody in VA doing anything on Friday? I'll be home with a free day and I want to see people!

I'm really over this nausea thing. As much as I'd like to find a way to finally lose weight, the last medication I was put on and now the supplements have both just made me not want to eat. Or move.

Otherwise, life is good. I've been keeping my updates to Twitter lately because apparently it's easier to update about like in 150 characters or less. That and it's easy to use from my phone, especially since I now have a Torch that I don't want to throw against the wall every 5 minutes.

School is great. I'm really liking everything, except Accounting which I'm going to be lucky if I just get by with a C. We have industry guest speakers all the time and once I figure out what I want to do, the school has so many connections to get jobs that the job hunt won't make me want to cry like last time.

The Wine and Dine Half Marathon was a bit of a disappointment. For one thing, my training was sabotaged by the medicine that made me vomit and then my back going out about a month and a half before. I pretty much knew I wasn't going to finish (again *sighs*) so my goal was 8 miles. I made 9 miles before my back made it impossible to keep going and I did it faster then the Princess so there was improvement. Now it's on to the January Half where I will finish, no question. Also, the Wine and Dine was HORRIBLY run. You'd think since Disney runs two yearly Half Marathons a year, they'd know how to run one, just at night. It was a disaster. And they sold too many tickets to the after party, like to the public who had nothing to do with the race, so even if I'd been up to try the beer and food from the Food and Wine Festival, I didn't want wait in line for 30 minutes while my back made it hard to walk.

Thankfully, I was able to check out the Food and Wine Festival a few days later and it was awesome. So much yummy food and alcohol. And I got to see Sugar Ray in Epcot too!

That's all I can think of. I'm slowly sucking down chicken broth and saltines to appease my stomach, my trainer will just have to deal with the carbs for dinner since its all I can eat. Now its watch tv and cuddle with one of my various kitties until bedtime.

Alright, this is your first and only warning. This post is going to be very image heavy. I'm going to post a link to the album all of the images are from after the cut.

Also, I suppose this could serve as spoilers for the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at the Universal Studios Resort in Orlando, Florida. While I tried to take pictures of everything, they don't do the experience justice.

( Welcome to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter )

Here is the entire album of pics. There are over 200 pictures from all angles, with details and my own arty shots. I give permission for the RPG So Much Owed to use any images they choose. All else must ask permission before using or reposting, though chances are I will gladly give it.

Finally quitting my stressful, horrible job today. I'm hoping they will just let me work the rest of the current schedule which will make my last day Sunday. Worse comes to worse, my last day will be Wednesday.

I feel better already, you all have NO idea...

Today can just fuck off. I'd go into more details but my rant is starting to sound vaguely suicidal, which I'm not btw, but something needs to happen and I mean fucking soon because I'm so close to giving up. On RP. On Friends. On Work. On my Body. On Life.

How ironic is it that school is about the only thing good I have going for me right now?

( Vague rant I'm not apologizing for )

I'm so tired it's not even funny.

Ugh. I just came back upstairs from watching the awesome season premiere of Royal Pains and after checking my flist, I'm suddenly depressed.

Something I wonder why I still follow people from back home. Even if I've long separated myself from some of those people...it stills gets me every time to know that they are still hanging out together and I'm done here trying to make a new life alone. Am I being adventurous having a new life somewhere else or am I purposefully confining myself to solitude, away from familiar places?

I think about this a lot. Would my life have been easier if I'd stayed in Virginia? Is Florida where I really belong? And no, it really doesn't help that my one true friend down here is moving back to New Jersey at the end of the month. It's a really good thing for her and Mike, but still. I know I need to find people to make friends with but I just don't know where. I don't think I'm being picky either. I need a group that is more like me, I just don't know here to find it. Grooming school and work are a different type of person then I am, not as pop culture savy and more earthy, and the kids at school are all years my junior, enough to make it awkward. It just adds to the feeling I still have of liking Florida...but am just still not sure I belong here.

Of course, I wonder why I still follow them but I won't stop. I can't give up that little piece of home, even if it's not related to my proudest of moments.