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[littlesilvered]

So I may have had a small mental breakdown of the 'What the fuck am I doing?' after seeing the lady at the DMV cut up my Virginia Driver's License and which involved crying and calling my mom from the car.

I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. I'm in a strange place where I know very few people and am being forced to wait on something that I have no control over.

Virginia was safe. How long until Florida feels the same way? Will it ever?

I think this breakdown was long over due honestly. I think I'm just going to go curl up into a ball now.

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[azzinita.livejournal.com]

Speaking as someone who went through exactly the same thing 4 months ago, I can empathize totally. You made a huge huge change and everything's going to be uneven and shaky for a while. (they are still for me) but I promise things will settle soon and you'll feel less out-of-control. Don't worry if you don't settle right away. I'm still working on that. But I can say that I feel a whole lot more functional now than when I first came out to California.

My advice is to do things that are familiar, like watch your favorite movies or re-read your favorite books. Something to establish "safety". That's what helped me.

[imperfect_tense]

I know the feeling. *squishes muchly, dammit*