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Dec. 2nd, 2006 11:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlesilveredYou know...about an hour ago I had alot to say, on this the eve of my 21st birthday. About how it doesn't feel like I thought I would, how I'm not the person I thought I would be. How the future scares the living shit out of me because it's all changing...I'm changing, going to change, drastically. I hope.
But, you know, I don't want to look back at this and see emo shit. Though I will say one thing: last year at this time, I couldn't wait for this day to come. Now that it's here, I don't feel nearly ready.
It's scary...and good...and weird. It's so many things that I can't put one word to it.
I just hope by 22...well...really the only thing I hope to be more of is more confident. In myself, in my life. I've been in flux for way to long, it's starting to hurt. Alot.
Orlando is going to be a turning point in my life. I'm excited and I'm scared. And it doesn't help I still have papers and finals to worry about.
Things can only get better.
And it can start tomorrow, with the Redskins winning for me ;)
Good luck me. Your going to need it.
But, you know, I don't want to look back at this and see emo shit. Though I will say one thing: last year at this time, I couldn't wait for this day to come. Now that it's here, I don't feel nearly ready.
It's scary...and good...and weird. It's so many things that I can't put one word to it.
I just hope by 22...well...really the only thing I hope to be more of is more confident. In myself, in my life. I've been in flux for way to long, it's starting to hurt. Alot.
Orlando is going to be a turning point in my life. I'm excited and I'm scared. And it doesn't help I still have papers and finals to worry about.
Things can only get better.
And it can start tomorrow, with the Redskins winning for me ;)
Good luck me. Your going to need it.
