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Being jealous is SO stupid...yet I find myself being jealous at the stupidest things. I don't want to be because I know it's stupid but I can't help it damnit. I want to be happy for people, I do, but when everything just comes difficult to me, people getting it right just makes it even more so.

I know this is kinda weird, but this situation is paralleling in so many parts of my life that is just kind of scary. And frustrating, did I mention frustrating? Extremely.

Sorry. I know it's petty and stupid but I don't know what else to say or where to say it and keeping it in is just about enough to make my burst. But I also don't want to rain on anyone's parade and I know some people don't want to hear me whine. So here it is, nice and general and not aimed at anything, because like I said, this is paralleling in SO MANY ways in my life it's weird.

Okay I'm done. I feel mildly better. Well, not really but whatever.